Roll on Arte

"But to you I'm fine, and I'm in your mind even if I'm not around. And my arms are strong and that's where you belong, given the love that we've found." -Roll On Arte, Felice Brothers
Christmas break has gone by so quickly. There are so many times I look around and wonder where has the time gone? Tomorrow I am moving into my very first house and I have no idea where the time has gone! I am already done a semester of college and about to start the second.
"Roll on Arte, roll on. Your hearts too good for this town."
I still haven't spent any time with Maddi or Amanda. I really miss Amanda. I always enjoy spending time with her when we get a chance to.
I spent a lot of time with Natalie over this break and I enjoyed every second of that.
I'm about to not see Adam for about two weeks and I wonder how much I'm going to miss him. =/
The other night I told him I was freaking out about us. I'm so worried about going back to school this time. The first time I went I didn't know what I was getting into, but now I know the tensions and the pressure it is going to put on Adam and I and I hate it. I don't want to walk into troubles again. I can't even tell you how perfect things have been for us lately. It's felt like I've been in a movie. It's the most amazing feeling in the world to be in love. To know that I care about him as much as I do and being able to tell him and completely be myself around him is just so amazing. Sometimes I think about how different of a place the world would be if everyone felt the way I feel everyday. I can't even describe how I feel about him really. If anything happened to us I don't know what I would do. Anyway, I got sidetracked. Back to the conversation we had. So after I told him all this he told me that I can't be afraid of breaking up and that he would do everything he could to make this semester better for us. I really hope it will be okay. He also told me that he thinks we have something special and he said that even if something does happen to us, it doesn't mean we are over forever. It was a really, really good conversation. It made me feel a lot better about our relationship and how things are going. No matter what happens, I know at the end of the day he loves me and I am crazy about him.
I wish that money grew on trees. I can't even tell you how much money troubles me. My finances are going to be so tight this semester! And I really hate it. I would love to be able to spend a lot of money when people come up and treat them stuff, but I never can! I just keep telling myself that when I'm done school I'll be making good money, so I just have to be broke for about 6 years. I can handle that.
No matter what comes at me in life I really do believe I can face it.
I want a tapestry for over my bed. Call me a hippie. I don't care.